movement

I looked around my old room and realized that i still had michael's flowers and valentine card. So I took the opportunity to trash the roses and rip up the card. I almost cried when I did it.

Break ups are hard. Especially if you dated a person for a year. I know now as I think about it that me and him aren't meant to be, and I can accept that. It doesn't make me any less upset about things. It doesn't make it any easier. It hurts some times more than others. I go up and down with my emotions over it. I'm not crying anymore. But, It's hard. I deleted him as a friend and unsubscribed from his videos even if they are hilarious. I can't handle seeing him or being around him. I told him we couldn't be friends, it wasn't out of spite. I just can't handle it.

So, I'm hoping I'll find some other boy to be with and until then I think I'm going to take this opportunity to explore things. I've always been in serious(ly stupid) relationships and I'm sick of them. Fooling around doesn't sound like a bad idea.