No Going Back

I realized that at this point, there's no going back from where i am with my beliefs. Once you've obtained knowledge about something it can't be unlearned. I've been watching these videos about creationism and Christianity all these things backed up by scientific reasoning, most of which I don't understand because well I don't remember biology that clearly. I always manage to find more reasons against the existence of a god than for the existence of one and the reasons I do get to try to prove it have holes in them.

I don't wish I believed. I guess I understand more clearly the idea that ignorance is bliss and that with great power comes great responsibility.
If I never bothered to learn about things, I could easily attribute problems in our world to not enough people worshiping a certain god. I could easily say that a person inflicted with a certain disease was being punished for immoral behavior. But we all know that disease comes from bacteria and viruses and whatnot.

I can't be knowledgeable without admitting a failure to act.

It's kinda scary.